Winner or Loser, Who is What You Are!

When I start competing in running, of course you want to win.  Who doesn't?  It will give you the feel of huge satisfaction when you win.  My love in athletic world during school time grow insane when our school, the team, keep winning in a lot of categories.  It was the sweetest memories ever.  Our team became the unbeatable.  Other schools just grinned over us, envy I guessed :).

Well, there's this quote: 'what goes up, it will eventually goes down'.  It is because of the gravity, man.  But I'm not talking about scientific proof here.  In life there are times we will going down from all the success, richness, lucks, powers,... in this case glorious in winning all the trophies in sport.  One by one in my team disappeared.... finishing school, transfered school, family problem, wanted to concentrate in the final year, bla bla bla...  Me myself had problem of my own, knee injuries called 'anterior cruciate ligament' (ACL).  You usually injure your ACL by a sudden twisting motion and it is a common sports injuries!

Slowly the team break.  We are no longer a strong team.  We are no longer the gruesome team.  We just evolved.... transform to a new life.  Someone told me that this is not a God's punishment, but something for us to ponder, reflect back or just an add up in your life experiences.  Who knows... It was a devastating at that time.  I felt like a loser.

Feeling as a loser keep continuing in my journey of life.  Although I'm living quite a decent life, coming from an average family,  my self esteem quality frailed.  Meeting with different kind of people, experiencing their over-expectation make me couldn't cope with the pressure.  I've kept running away from all the problems occurred.  Yes.  I've run again, but running away...

Somehow, one day I've met someone special.  This someone thought me to let go.  Let go all the burden... slowly.  It is alright to lost once in a while.  Ignoring all the negative comments.  And this person gave me a gift that triggered once again to run again ...... towards happiness!

I've learned to be appreciative in life.  Not letting myself to succumb to pressure becoming perfect all the time.  Enjoying every moments that come and go.  Every person have their weakness.  Just need to overcome them slowly or embrace them to positive thinking.  I've done this and that.  I've managed a lot in life.  If I can do it so everyone else too.  Just be positive.  :)